And today was the day

haha, as i continue to read back on old posts i just see that i was so... dumb. even back in june.. how embarrassing, haha.

i don't quite know what's going on with my mom, but i'm not complaining. i got suuuuper in trouble recently. some deep shit where cops came and everything, and here i am a week later totally not in trouble or feuding with my mom and i don't think i ever was! well, obviously i was in trouble but there was never any consequences that were set in stone, i just didn't ask to go out, but when i did a few days ago my mom was like, "sure." and when i told my mom i had a tattoo, expecting her to totally freak out, she just went "pff." and now, she shows it off! she showed it off to my uncle, my aunt, my neighbor.. sooo weird! she hates ink. i'm kinda enjoying it.. what's going onnnn!

next year is my last year of high school ooooh yeaaa... well anyway i ended up going to starscape and i don't really feel like sitting here and bitching about the misfortunate string of events that took place after seeing as they were all practically my fault and now i have to sit here and face all the repercussions.. so yeah. Annie, my dead cousin, her family from denver is coming in like four days or something so my mom is all aarrrrrrrrttttiiieee [haha, devon...] about cleaning the house. it will be nice/awkward to see them, cause i literally haven't seen them in like ten years and i didn't even get to see them when their own sister was murdered and idk.. just a little weird i'm predicting. i saw this drawing of a face in the elevator at mercer on my way to class on thursday and i thought of you polly or of you chris yaple cause it was in that style you guys draw in, you know.. and i was going to take a picture and show you guys on here but then i didn't cause my phone is a pos and it probably wouldn't have showed up in a very good quality anyway...

we had a nice plan all laid out and everything was supposed to work and i went all the way to philly to get my 60$ ticket and then the DAY that I am supposed to leave for bmore my mom is all nooo you can't go... =|
way to fucking ruin this thing that i've been waiting only oh i don't know three months for? i swear i'm just about to go despite what you want you selfish ass

yeah, christian if i explained what i meant by that to you, i think you would totally agree. arghh. some fucking people make me so mad. i need to start going back to church more often. i need to stop going out so much. all of these things i realize and yet i still don't do them. retard. today i am going to the beach with corey, cool. all of the stupid various lies i have to tell through out my daily life really are taking a tole on me and i don't want to do it but at the same time it is so worth it. so i will continue to do it. retard.

naomi and i went to new york on monday to go to long island university for her interview. brooklyn is really crazy, i was the only white person on the wholee block haha.. anyway, i had a nice time. and i bought this hat!

i dyed my hair light ash blonde tonight, it's pretty alright. i don't know why i'm writing this or reading people's entries instead of reading Ethan Frome and writing the responses to thesee unthought provoking questions that really just put me right to sleep. I'm really excited for St. Patrick's Day; I think I will skip school and go to the parade in New York.. that would be cooooool. Lately in school i've been starting to get my shit together for next year. like my mom is going to buy my online senior english course next and that basically finalizes me grduating early. and that would be so nice letttt me tell you because that means no tca for two years and basically no more highschool because i dont think i could last for much longer than i already have to. i should get back to this.

it's super disappointing to be lied to overandoverandover again.
in other news, i don't want to go to school this week. i think i have a half day on wednesday. Not so bad. anyone want to do some shopping sometime soon?

i'm getting a puppy! a puggle [beagle/pug]
how exciting!



how not exciting: i broke my mac desktop =|


here he is!

does anyone own it? or know a website i can go to to download it?

starting to look at potential schools i will apply to next fall
looking at upenn, tcnj, and rutgers which are my top three. if anyone knows any more good ones, let me know!

seeing sam and christie was so nice, I had a really good time! Yo, can I see those picsss?

I don't stand for the black man's side, I don' t stand for the white man's side. I stand for God's side.




this is nice. i nailed a cross onto my door today. naomi says it looks like you're entering a chapel. maybe that means my mom will stay out. ha. this ibook sure is nice

it should come tomorrow or maybe the next day. i don't really know. it would be nice to have a car to drive myself to devon's birthday party/art/music thing. :[

I wish I were a cat so I could curl up on the heater and sleep there, too.
I got a new laptop, it was nice. My birthday is Friday ehh. I hope I make it to that Devon's birthday party thing.

Things with Wilson and I are good. My job is going good. School is going good, [winter break soon, sweet]. I can't complain about anything. It feels nice.

I was really pleased to see that so many people read my entry, contrary to what I though was going to happen. I just wanted to say thankss for being so forgiving :]

ps sorry for my spelling im in a ruusssh to work
OH COME VISIT ME! dominicks pizza on rt.29 sunday tuesday weds thurs 5-830 sat 1-5

Sometimes I read things like this from only about a year ago and I realize that I was a babbling idot. Ha.
I really don't like mccoriston, and I still can't spell it. The people are terribly ridiculous. All the girls that are in my classes are always talking about the Jonas Brothers. I had to ask them what they were. They're a Disney Band. =|

I miss people I used to be friends with like Tina and Sam and Julie and Christie and D and even Devon even though that didn't end well.
What have you guys been up to? If what I said to some of you wasn't really terrible like I think it was maybe we should get together. I have to say, Devon I miss you a lot. And I know you probably won't even read this but I do. And I'm sorry to you for how I blew up but I was so mad at myself for what a fucking idiot I was and I guess I took it out on you. Same to you, Julie.

That's all I have to say.

well, here i am in New Hampshiere.
With Gracie sitting next to me
today she wrote me a note and on the outside it said Hi and i opened it and it said you are my frend thankyou for coming to my haws
<3<3<3
i've got to read this to her when i'm done she says
she's so precious
i taught her how to crack her knuckles
LOL<3
I'm going to play barbies with her, she's been asking me all day
we might go to my mom's boyfriend's ski house on the way home
in vermont
bye.